I guess Im gonna finally stop being in denial that hardly

anyone uses xanga anymore and get a myspace...

hopefully it wont confuse me too much.

Im too used to xanga.

Myspace

We're all looking for [someone]

To take away the pain

And sometimes...

I get sick of people

just not giving a fuck....

especially when Im standing there

trying so hard....knowing Im

going to get hurt but doing it anyways...

because well....

thats life.

One day...

 I hope for [someone] to come into

my life and care about me

just as much as I care about them....

And yes, God...

I know Im hoping for a whole lot

one little stare from you;;

is all it [takes]

Amazing day....

Nothing really out of the ordinary happened,

it was just really good.

[I love that boy so much]

I just look at him and I cant help but smile

and thank God for what I have right now

The way he makes me feel is...incredible.

I couldn't be happier right now....

and I know I shouldn't have

just said that, and Im sure that

I will regret it.

Hopefully this weekend is good.

Permit Friday [finally]

Dad bought me a car last week...

pretty damn excited about that.

Its not the greatest but its a car and

I think its pretty [awesome].

*Ford Escort zx2*

I love my Dad because I havent even

been talking about getting a car or even really

thinking about it and just out of the blue he

brings me home a car.

Crazy....so unlike him.

But yea....I miss my Andrea

The weekend is the only thing

that keeps me going through the week...

knowing I'll see my Best Friend.

Valentine's Day was pretty good.

Glad we were back together just in time for it....

that would have been lonely.

3 years 4 months today! gahh...

Happy 16th Birthday Chels!

So not the greatest weekend but I've had worse.....

barely.

Things aren't as good but they're still alright.

I guess Im just in a bad mood.

I hate cold weather.

Makes everything seem really

dark and gloomy.

Im ready for it to be sunny and warm

again so I can be happier.

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[You Jump,I Jump]

I love you Andrea

I haven't taken a breath since

we last touched &

suffocating has never felt this good

We are back together and happier than ever....

I did not know that it was possible to be this happy.

I seriously have never felt like this before.

I love Zach Swonger with everything and I am glad that he

has turned around and we can be together.

I will never not love him.

No matter what he puts me through...no matter what hell

we go through...and believe me...

we have been through hell and back.

Some people know the whole story,some people dont...

most people believe what they hear or just

 believe what they want to believe.

But I dont care because the only thing that

matters is that we know the truth,

and my real friends know what really happened.

Other people dont matter....

There isnt anything in this world that could

 bring me down right now

except for the fact that my best friend isnt happy.

I should be on cloud nine right now but im not...Im on like cloud

7 1/2.I want to be but its hard to be happy when your best friend

isnt able to be just as happy.I love her and I wish I could make

her stop hurting but I cant...and that kills me.

I love you Andrea....and Im always here.

You jump, I jump....

when it comes down to it...
i let them think what they want.
if they care enough to bother with what i do
then i`m already better than them
- Marilyn Monroe

I cant believe I have this back....